Dear JM

All the best for your A levels. Sorry I can’t have been there with you all the way but I’ll pray for you everyday.

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Heart of Greed

I watched “Heart of Greed” Episode 11 when Yan (Chen Fala) told the family about what she said to her examiner for her English Oral Examination on the topic “lost and found”.

I cried.

So i replayed the scene.

I cried.

And so I replayed it again.

And guess what?

You decide.

More and more late nights

I’ve been staying up late again! Back to camp on friday morning for basketball and it’s really a blessing I finally get to play with my camp mates. Terrence, Vince, CT, Ronnie, WY, Galvin and the new guys. All best to these guys after my batch leaves, all the nonsense, hard work and overtimes. It’ll be tough on you guys mentally more than physically so always hang in there because as ORD is around the corner, your life will be like mine! Slacked around in camp after that till 1145, and went for WITS outing with the team at shangri la. Dam good the buffet I tell you I stuffed myself so silly haha! Went home to sleep before soccer at boon lay with the regulars! I know what you’re thinking, what a mad freak right? Ya Im experiencing the aching but remember they say “no pain no gain”? (:

After soccer, was feeling really bored and last minute plans with ZK again so we headed for Timbre can you believe it? And after watching 53A we went to watch a late night move at PS. By the time I got home it was 5am! Ok, this might be a shocker, I had to go OCS’s place for his wedding at 730am! Yup, Im nuts.

I never knew wedding preparations were so much trouble. You have to pick up the bride, have tea ceremonies at both places then prepare for the wedding dinner. There’s so much to plan just before the wedding dinner and I was only playing a small role good on you OCS (: I don’t know why but throughout the wedding I was feeling.. weird. It’s like I wished I was the one getting married. HA! I know fat hope =(

Despite the lack of sleep, dragged myself to Timbre once again for Charlotte’s birthday(: And the goodfellas were great! As usual. It was my 4th time in the same week at Timbre! It’s never ever dull with good music and great food! Oh! And I forgot to mention that Poon introduced me to Sara! She’s really so friendly (: Can’t wait for November to come cause 53A will be performing till 3! But anyway! Happy birthday to Charlotte! 20 years old and I wish you all the best! After Timbre, went to Timah with Matt and Char and stayed up till 4am before.. Church!

Im going to die of fatigue really soon. I think I’ve slept less than 20 hours this week =(

Im really happy for you. All the best (:

To you: I really don’t know where everything is going but from the looks of it, I know that you don’t care about our friendship so I’m going to treat this friendship the way you do. After this meet up I feel really strange and vexed like is it really time for everything to end? After your exams I’m going to break the news to you knowing that you don’t even know the existence of this blog.

Wonderful!

It brings me such great joy seeing people smile because of my actions. Today I gave Mam Melissa her birthday present, a self-made bear from build-a-bear workshop, and she smiled! I mean who can resist such a cuddly and cute bear called Melly? (: And then I asked her to shake hands with the bear to activate the song and she was so reluctant at first because she thought the bear will jump and hug her! =D Thanks to sister for helping me with the bear next time we’ll go make one more cuter one k? But this time the bear is all yours!

Thinking back seriously when was the last time I’ve done something to put a smile on someone’s face? I really can’t recall, maybe it’s because some people choose not to show their appreciation but when I saw Melissa’s warm smile I couldn’t help but smile myself. I think I’m crazy really since I’ve learnt to be a pessimist meaning that I really don’t expect anything from anyone. So strange!

Just returned from Timbre and Poon did the most amazing thing by helping me talk to Sara (: And hello! She’s like my idol I couldn’t help but smile secretly inside especially when she’s so friendly and offered to shake my hand gosh if only I can talk to Mang too I’ll thank the heavens!

Going for OCS’s wedding later and then Charlotte’s birthday dinner! That’s the life!

Crush

I stayed out till the wee hours of the morning again! It’s really bad for my body I know it but with company like Char, Matt and ZK who can resist? (: Moreover it’s acoustic night at Timbre with Sara and Alvin (: Gosh I did the most stupid request for a song because I wrote “p.s. Alvin there’s a roach on your head” because Alvin said he has this fear of roaches. Man, so retarded but at least I made Sara laugh (:

Hehe, I just love having a crush <3

Loneliness

I spent my whole Saturday watching movies like the above and yes, all of them were Korean love movies. There were a couple more but they were way too boring and draggy so I left them out. I think just one year ago I was complaining that Korean movies are repetitive because the story lines of all the movies are exactly the same. Rich Man meets simple girl but initially hates her but in the end all’s well. Initially I just wanted to watch these movies because I wanted to escape into another world to get my mind off everything’s that bugging me now.

But the more you watch them, the more you want to relate the happenings to those in your life. Really all day long I keep reflecting my past life and I missed school life honestly. It’s simple and worry-free other then studying but that’s just about the only thing you have to worry about.

The more I watched, the more I realized I’m such a crybaby and it’s to the extent that I’ll even know seconds before the scene the time I’ll cry wah thanks a lot. I’m some loser emo-kido la; can cry even while watching coach carter beat that people!

I feel… so alone. Not that I don’t have any company, I have super-wonderful friends but it’s only possible that we’ve each other’s company during that brief period of time that we meet up. Something tells me that I want to get married soon for companionship! =x

The more I feel alone, the more emo things I’ll do and the more emo I’ll get. And it’s pointless doing things to get my mind off everything sigh some part of me really regrets going to Timbre this friday night cause although I got to meet LongZi, it brought back unwanted memories thanks to some idiot gross shit.

Ok, I guess the only option is to get high! I’m going to sniff some glue/thinner or get myself drunk =D

Betrayed

I still feel so betrayed over something that happened at Timbre but nonetheless! I got to go out with my dearest sister Long Zi once again before her school starts =(

Really today brought back a lot of memories from the beginning of the year. Times when I felt comforted and like a little brother happily in the safe arms of an elder sister. Gosh I don’t even know what Im writing hehe!

It’s 2:40am and why! It’s time to sleep! (: