I read back all my messages of July2008 and I realized that so much has happened over the past month, and reading them brings back a mixture of sweet and sour memories.
I don’t even feel like writing about what happened recently, but I barely lasted 5minutes at my favourite shopping centre, Queensway Shopping Centre. No doubt I’ve already decided on buying the Arenas shoe but still, I totally lost the passion of looking for new shoes.

I really hope August hits me even harder. To a point where I get numb to such pain

Falling apart

Everything starts to slide now

Sadded

Ever felt lousy and helpless because the person you want to help doesn’t want to even help himself/herself?

It’s been a tough few days, I felt really lonely. Sometimes it’s a good thing to keep to yourself and isolate yourself from the world but it’ll have to end some time and you’ll eventually have to face up to all your problems.

Is it a good thing to be too honest?

To my teh-o: I always looked to you whenever I felt this way. Why did you have to go and leave me all alone :’( Oh man time please faster pass

Love it today

I just loved today(:

First drive plus open talk = best outing ever

And Special One finally asked me out on Friday(: Hopefully she’s willing to join me at airport to send Andre off to Taiwan (:

It’s finally here!

The new car came today! And it’s super nice to drive!

Anyway, I don’t know why I can have heart to heart talks to someone through messaging but not face to face.

Everyday I find no inspiration to write anything because I’m tired from work and by the time I get to sit in front of the computer, it’s close to 9pm and I can’t help but keep thinking about the volleyball show (:

Better not write too much about it before Special one turns jealous to I’ll keep the remaining of the post to shout out to her.

SPECIAL ONE YOU SAID YOU’LL MEET ME LAST WEEK BUT YOU DIDN’T EVEN MESSAGE. YOU MUST BE ENJOYING YOURSELF TOO MUCH WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND YOU’VE FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOUR SPECIAL ONE
-THE ONE WHO WALKED TO YOUR PLACE FOR SUPPER
-THE ONE WHO WALKED AROUND TOWN WITH YOU WHILE YOU SHOPPED
-THE ONE WHO WAS THERE WHEN YOU WERE SAD
-THE ONE WHO KEPT YOU COMPANY THOSE LATE NIGHTS
-THE ONE THE ONE THE ONE THE ONE

I AM THE ONE YOU UNDERSTAND! I DEMAND A BIGGER PLACE IN YOUR HEART THAN YOUR BOYFRIEND YOU UNDERSTAND? IF HE’S UNHAPPY ABOUT IT I’LL SHOW HIM MY 36INCH BICEPS GRRRRRRR

Alright! That was seriously fun to rant about! (: It’s going to be 9 soon yay!

Happy Birthday Andre

Happy Birthday Andre Chong/Zhang (:

Beach Balls Babes

Special One: Thanks a lot special one we can celebrate a decade of friendship real soon (: Hope you had fun at genting you love-sick-bird

Li Ching: Of course just being honest with what I think of you thanks for helping kill time with the questions (:

Charles: RANDOM LAAAAAAAAA. I just messaged you just now asking you to go Ah Mei I guess you must have slept already.

It’s already 2:09am in the morning I’m still awake with work tomorrow which has just been stressful I feel like sleeping all the time with all the Y61s, Y62s, YT3s, YT5s, ALBs, LS23, LU23 STOs, BERs it’s so mundane and boring =/

Everyday it has been the same thing over and over again. Oversleeping in the morning, speeding all the way to camp, rushing to fall-in, breakfast, @(*#&^@(*#^*@&# lunch, (@*&(@*#(#*&@(# and rush home to watch BEACH BALLS BABES (:
Oh god Jesseca is so darn hot I get excited whenver I watch her being the hot-head tomboy with lofty aspirations. It’s so irritating to see Chris Lee wooing her it’s really extreme. How many guys will actually wait outside the girls house being an easy prey to mosquitoes just to get the girl’s forgiveness? I think most guys will just take the easy way out and message or call. And to be willing to leave everything to her in his will is plain unreal unless you tell me he has nothing to his name since when did Channel 8 dramas get so ‘drama-mama’.

The point is Jesseca is soooooo darn attractive. Her dresses are so pretty on her hot body has anyone noticed she has the nicest legs in the show? (: Her short hair so so perfect like Michelle Chong’s new hairstyle AHHHHHHHHH.

Joanne Peh’s character in my opinion is the most deserving to be admired actually. She has such a torn and broken family and has to help with the bulk of income in the family. All she probably wants is a pillar of strength to cling on to but Chris Lee is such a JERK BLOODY ASSHOLE.

Dawn Yeoh plays an innocent girl under the strict care of her grandfather. She reminds me of someone in JC actually, and I guess it’s cute in a way because guys will want to protect this cute and innocent girl (:

Oh well I always get so into the show I wish I played a role there (: There’s no secret to which girl I’ll woo but with the competition it’s going to be hard =(

Ok I’m dreaming once again it’s almost 3am I’m already halfway into my dream haha my bed’s calling me CIAOZ

From Li Ching

#1. if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

If my lover betrayed me, my first thought will be “Why would she have done that?”, then think back carefully to whether I’ve failed her in the past. After trying my best to recall, I’ll calm myself down and talk to her. Maybe she did it because someone else was there when she needed comfort most? Maybe I’ve failed my duties as a boyfriend? After all, communication and honesty are the most important in a relationship so if I’m still the one she loves all this while, I’ll forgive her and get our relationship back on track.

If she doesn’t love me anymore or feels uncertain, then the best solution will be for us to take a step back in our relationship.

#2. if you can have a dream to come true, what dream would it be?

Since it’s a ‘dream’ haha, then I guess I’ll put some thick-skinned one and write- I want to marry Jesseca Liu (: And she can be of any character like Ruan Mian Mian (: Ok like the question said it’s a dream!

#3. what will your dream wedding be like?

Dream wedding?! Oh dear I haven’t really thought about it but the setting should be decided by my future wife. All I want is all my loved ones to be there to witness me and my wife going through the wedding.

#4. are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

Yes, because I don’t know what kind of life I want to lead, sometimes I feel the drive for a life of competition but at times I just wish I’ll live a simple life oh dear I must be confused.

#5. what’s your ideal lover like?

Haha! Face like Jesseca Liu.
Body like Jesseca Liu.
Height like Jesseca Liu.

OH SHUT IT I’M DREAMING AGAIN.

#6. which is a bigger blessing? Loving someone or being loved by someone?

Loving someone knowing that the person loves you too.

#7. how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

That will depend on how long I love the person right? I mean if you love someone and the person just doesn’t show the least interest then how can you still love him forever?

#8. if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Simple, if you love someone you want him/her to be happy. And if he/her has found someone who he/she loves then shouldn’t you be happy too? But in the first place, if I like someone I’ll tell her.

#9. is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

Yes, when I quarrelled with GY.
And when Chris Lee saw Jesseca naked and chasing her so irritating (:

#10. is being tagged fun?

It’s fun if the questions are fun. But thinking back, I got tagged by Li Ching but she didn’t tag me at all

#11. how do you see yourself in 10 years time?

In 10 years I’ll be 30. And probably 3-4 years into my job. Hopefully I would be settled by then with lots of good friends to turn to and the special one. ( Hope Dorothy reads this haha )

#12. who are currently the most important people to you?

Somehow I feel that if I answer this question some people will complain buy I’m pretty sure that they know who they are (:

#13. what kind of person do you think the one who tagged you?

She’s very quiet but if you know her better you’ll realize that she’s not the way she seems because she thinks a lot and has lots to share when talking to her.

#14. would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?

Married to the one I love but poor.

#15. what’s the first thing you do every morning?

Open my eyes and complain about waking up early

#16. would you give all in a relationship?

Yes

#17. if you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?

I never believe in falling in love with 2 people at the same time. When you love someone, you love the people with all you got.

#18. what type of frens do you like?

People who like me for my strengths, and love me for my weaknesses

#19. what type of frens do you dislike?

If i dislike them, they wouldn’t be my friends.

#20. if you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?

I’ll choose love because it’s a life-long thing. Not that friendships are not but with love, you know that someone will always be there for you.